Laughing, Loving, and Never Giving In.

Just an update on my last blog post. Well Sammi tweeted me and she said everything was fine and she did not take anything offensively and also that she HAD understood my joke. Whew! I’m glad(: it put me at peace of mind. So yeah, that’s over

So this is a general opinion of mine but also a message out to the lovely Miss Sammi Doll over a misunderstanding which occurred earlier this evening. Earlier I had been on my phone browsing my feed and I saw that Sammi had tweeted this: 

Now I’m a huge “fan” of Sammi. Have been for about a year now. And I keep up with all her social networks (Twitter, Facebook, Viddy, etc.). I’m actually sending this post to her Formspring because I don’t want her to think anything awful of me. Well if you follow things such as her Formspring and Twitter, you’ll see how rude kids are to her. And these “fangirls”, as I’ll call them, take anything, literally ANYTHING, she says/tweets/etc. and twists it into something they can use to call her a “whore” or say she’s just “riding on Jinxx’s coat tails”(<-someone actually used that phrase). And they’re downright disrespectful towards her, an ADULT, and they are all about 12-15. So as a JOKE. I then replied with:

Again. a JOKE. I don’t even talk/text with things like “OMGGG”. Let alone have so much disrespect for another elder (or human being in GENERAL) to say something like this sincerely. Which is why not 30 seconds later I made sure to tweet: 

I would never, EVER, say that seriously to an adult. I cannot imagine having that much disrespect towards MYSELF, to type it out and send it in a serious manner. I’m not that kind of person. And if Sammi at all recognizes me (which I don’t know if she does or not) she’d see that I’m always tweeting her and on her Formspring and Facebook messaging her for advice, or congratulating her, or telling her what a beautiful person she is. I’ve even told her before how I cannot even fathom how kids can be so disrespectful. And maybe this won’t mean anything because she and many others don’t share the same beliefs but I am a Christian. Not a crazy “let’s shove everything I believe in and judge everybody” type but I was raised in a Christian home with strong morals and values. And especially that I should always respect everyone around me, ESPECIALLY, my elders. And I have not once in my LIFE sent anyone a hate message online or said something hateful to someone to be intentionally malicious. I’m not saying I don’t dislike anything or any person in my life but I don’t believe in acting on those feelings because it just starts petty drama and I don’t want to waste my time on it. I would much rather just talk to people I like. And I honestly and truly like Sammi. She’s my idol and I have an IMMENSE amount of respect for her and those she surrounds herself with. However, one of Sammi’s (well, I’m going off an assumption I made from going on this woman’s profile) friends did not seem to understand that it was a joke or see my tweet and she tweeted to me this: 

Obviously she misunderstood. So I politely tweeted back saying :

I wanted to be defensive but, after a minute of thinking, I realized that that wouldn’t quite help my case or show that I had any sign of intelligence. And I also tweeted right after that:

Just to make sure I didn’t sound like I was being pretentious about the misunderstanding. However, as respectful as I am, and I don’t want this to come out as rude, only that I disagree with her way of handling that reaction. I think what the woman said in her tweet to me was very immature. Immature in the sense that, well there is a general rule that people shouldn’t use the internet to say hurtful things to other people. I realize people do, but it doesn’t cancel out the fact that they shouldn’t. Now I understand that she was reacting to something someone said to her friend and she probably honestly thought i meant it, which I suppose if partially my fault because I only mentioned Sammi in my clarifying tweet and not in a direct reply to that specific tweet. And I think it’s perfectly fine to put a child in their place and tell them they have no right to say such things about a stranger on the internet and that maybe they shouldn’t be on it if they’re going to abuse it in such a way. That’s FINE. However, this woman (in an intelligent format) told a MINOR, and yes I’m 17 so she was right in saying I was one, that she was promiscuous and that she should go get drunk and put herself in a dangerous situation that could get her raped/killed/etc. Now. I’ve been bullied and cyberbullied before, another reason why I don’t do it to others, and to me this is just that. It is just as immature as a 14 year old child telling a 24 year old adult that she is a slut and should go die because said 14 year old wants to date the adult’s boyfriend. It was also directly assumed on me that it was serious. I put the hash tag “What Ignorant Fangirls Say” and then the next clarifying tweet to AVOID that kind of reaction and to ensure that the point that it was a JOKE was made. I know it wasn’t Sammi who said this and I’m not blaming her, and I don’t hate her friend for saying it. I disagree, yes, but I’m not going to go around hating her. I’m only making this to send it to Sammi so that in the event she saw my tweet and also assumed I was serious that she could get the bad taste out of her mouth. I think that’s all I got. 

And to Sammi personally: Again, I am sincerely sorry for the misunderstanding. I did not mean to offend you. I only tweeted it because I thought maybe you’d find the mocking tone towards the ignorance slightly comical… Please don’t think anything less of me. I’m an “old soul” as you’ve said and sometimes I get too comfortable around adults because I get along with them better than a lot of kids my own age most of the time. So I’ll make a joke or comment sometimes that is inappropriate just because I’m NOT quite an adult even if I’m told I act like one. I know I’m not a “friend” or even an acquaintance of yours. Just a person who admires all your work and being in general. And because of how highly I hold you in my mind, I do value your opinion of me, even if it’s just a passing “Okay I know she’s not another ignorant teenager with no respect” kind of thing. So I hope you can forgive my actions. Thank you for being a beautiful person. I love you<3 

Love, Lexi